Being Single is a Gift form God!

if you are allowed to read this post, i hope you can keep your mouth zipped...

i recently found out that actually JK still has feelings for me.but i am not gg to answer him now. all i want to do with him is to bring him back to the correct path that god wants.

i wonder he is the one that God has arranged for me. last time, i told him: if we are meant for each other, our path will somehow meet. and now, this is happening...

came to me, tell me lots of stuff about him and rene, tell me he still have feelings for me, ask me whether i have given away my first kiss, ask me why i rejected him the other time, tell me tt he wishes to be the one i wil spend my life w and many more...

BUT, this is what i want you to know: i will not promise anyone or give anyone hope until God tells me you are the one.

AND, i do not want to be view as third party,or let anyone think tt i am one or tt i also dun wan to know that rene quarrel with you or u break w rene cos of me. SOOO, please know that i am only treating you as my frien and brother in christ :)

i am shocked

i just heard this from someone. this person said that a lot of people do not like you, which i do not understand. i admit that i do have a period of time where i really hated you, but was without much negaitve thoughts. but now, is really shocking.
he said that you are like throwing a lot of baits at one go, then see whether you can hook anyone up. this is like...lol...i dunno how to say, but is like okkkk.maybe you are like what gor and R said: too sociable. bt i really do not know what to say. then, also that your leg is too big. this one i have to defend for u because i am also like tt and you cannot blame one for this because you do not actually have a choice. at least this is in my case as i was born to be fat..hehehe

but just want to tell you this: no matter what, you are still my sister in Christ and in my heart, you have a special place:)

i am really gg to say everything out here.

he always disturb/ tease me, which is really annoying. then he says he likes me. when i do not believe, he says he heart-broken. then he keeps disturbing me, further on,he always will wait for me to finish my RJ then go to the interchange tgt.

then when i ask hm again, he said hao gan:yes. but he mihgt like another gal oso.

LOL. can this really happen?!?!

Pulau Ubin

I know that it has been a while since i went to pulau ubin.
Actually i also do not know how to say but this is just a feeling. Saying out will make people have the wrong idea. And so, i decided to pen it down here:
cos i do not know how to cycle, so i have to take a double one. And this is something i found out. Even though it is tough to cycle double, but cycling w boshen makes you feel safer. you do not have to worry much. But with ryan, you will worry a lot. don't neo how to put the feeling across. but this is just a thiught
So to the girl that boshen is going out w, you are really lucky :)

i want to look for a boyfriend. want someone to love, to care and to pay attention to me, but rest assure, i will not be in a rush to do that. i must and will control myself to listen to god's leading.
So god, when it is the right time, tell me who is that person for only the one that you told me is the one that suits me best, one that i will have no problem with, one that <3 you, one that will understand me mmost.

betrayed agian

have not been blogging for a long time, but this time is not a good one either.

have been betrayed by weiling again.i tot that she is one that i can trust, one that i can tell things abt eileen too since she got the same feeling as me, but now, i dun think so.found out from eileen that she told me n her different things...omg...what is she doing? no wonder junliang will not tell her things.

now another things tha have been bothering me is about jeekiat...he is w rene now. i should be happy...why am i not?whywhywhy????i dunno y n i dun wanna care. but i just wish them well.dun hurt rene.. :)

a dream

this is wierd not know why. but suddenly, last night, i had this dream.

i dreamt that john is servng the kids. and is not the children camp, but rather the sunday children mtg. this is funny. i had asked him to serve in the mtg before, but he did not want because he did not want to serve with his mum. but then this dreamt came. is it telling me that he will be serving? if yes, then why do god want to give me this dream? cos i wanted him to serve? i don't know. God, please tell me what you want me to do for you. if you want me to tell john, give me a chance and the courage that i will not feel wierd.

'clever' people

i dun like my group. or in fact,. people who are known to be clever. not that they are not good, but is just that thye wants to live up to everyone's expectation and so they don't like to share with others what thye think and dun even want to discuss. once they iscuss, they only look for people who can listen to what they say and what their answer is...never listen to what others say. when they listen they will ask, what u think leh, den give u lotsa opinions of what they think!!!idiot!!

u again

i donot understand why. but you are really making yourself cheap. you change and change your biyfriend, as though you are changing clothes. i cannot say that you are slut because it is a very bad word, but you are really trying to prove that you are and that please dn be so sociable. it will be good for you.

during conf

i do not know why. maybe i know who is the person for me, maybe i do not know. maybe i have started to forget about junliang le.but i am really confuse now. when i see jia jun in conference, i just have this strong feeling in me. i do not know why i have this feeling, but it is just strong inside me. i do not know how he feels about me too...it is very confusing!!!just hope that go will show me soon!!i dont wan to do the same mistake again.feel so guilty.

with lionel

okay! i am together with lionel! i do not know why. one should be happy when they are in a relationship, but i am not. i think we have take thinks too fast.

to think of it, we do not have enough time for each other, do not know each other well enough. but if i were to tell him that i want to break up now, it will be wierd. i should hold on to it till maybe after holiday or during holiday ba.

God please help me. i know that you are able to carry me through! i know that you are able to carry me through in this thing.i must believe in you lord!!!give me the strength that i need!!!

eileen as a slut

am i supose to trust her after she have lied to me, betrayed me and stuff?

this is what i found out from her:

     none other than KRISTY     says (2:50 PM):
*r u seriously tgt w edmund?
              EILEEN     (R); Heaven's Melody.     says (2:51 PM):
*yeap for this week only.


this is really omg!!!how can she do this thng?
isint it abit wrong to do this kind of thing?
i cant help it but say that she is a slut!!!

first blog post

this shall be my private blog that no one will be seeing unless i give tt person personally the address...and if anyone who actually caught entering this blog without my permission will be dead really!!!