I really do not know what to do now. Really need His help. Do not know why at this period of time, there will be so many people going into the hospital.
First, it was my uncle. He was admitted in because of appendices.
Then after that, got the news from relatives in Malaysia that aunt and uncle got cancer.
Then, brother went operation for his back.
Then the worst one came. Another of my uncle in Singapore, thought he was with asthma when he actually got leukemia. The kind where you might just die within weeks.
Arghhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
At times like this, I really wish He will show me why He is putting all these in my family. What is He going to show me? Heard mum crying while bathing just now. At times, I feel like crying too. But sometimes, you just cannot. esp when u hear your mum saying this to you: you need to help whenever you can now. You are strong. Mummy is going to collapse any time. I really cannot take it anymore if any of my family members kena any thing again. I do not know how to react liao.
sometimes, I really do wish that there is someone to hear me rant, lend me a shoulder to lean on. Let me just cry out, but I will not feel embarrassed de!!!i do not know who is this person, but God, I really need one to rely on. If not, give me the strength la!!!!!!!!!
Mum doesn’t even allow me to tell these to anyone. But, mum, sorry la. I have told 2 of my close friends, who are able to help me pray about it.
