ok. we are officially tgt.
No. i am not talking about Jun Liang or Kong Ming. I am talking about Yann Shaw. He is really a nice guy though. And i never knew he can be so sweet.haha.
Initially, i was still thinking, really? can we be tgt? are we able to continue this? Am i really ready for this? But as time goes by, i think yes. He slowly slowly made me feel very very comfortable around him.
And yesterday he said the best thing. It all went like that.

we were talking about his joke with Yao Jie, and how Yao Jie praise that Cindy is pretty. And when Cindy dress up very pretty.

Shaw: Cos I think Cindy is like a lot of guy's the kind of girl.

Me: Also your girl right?!

Shaw: No La. You are my girl. Cos i know what i want.

But i just do not understand why, we are like keeping it a secret.
So God, guide us.

yesterday, this feeling came back strong again. i wan a bf. someone there to be holding you when u are alone, when u are down, and sad. and when i read kong ming's msg again, it was worst, cos i know it jus isint same anymore. i am not tt strong u know. it was really hurtful....

then when i saw deanna's blog, sometimes u will feel sad cos yr friends actually went out, but the actually did not even bother to ask u. i have totally no idea what did i do wrong, but they jus seems to be like dun wan me in their gathering.well. nvm...i shall not blame them anymore...

but i really want to have a bf...