secrets again :)

since long never come to this blog anymore. but yes, this blog is for me to say the darkest secret in me which i do not want any one to know. though i know this secret i am saying, some of them know it alr, but is still something which i do not wish to let people whom i am not close w but have my another blog add to know.

as some of them alr know, my trainer is gabriel tan. yes, though i know him for only a short period of time, but through sms n talking in phone, he made me know that he is a kind of guy whom i am looking for. one who is fun and out-going, and yet at the same time, also one who is a devoted Christian. even his mum is. when i went to visit him in the hospital last Saturday, his mum was so friendly. and all the while i can feel tt he is worried for me. which made me feel realy bad, cos i am not doing well. then yesterday, he texted me. really sweet and happy after reading it. when he said he will be back and help me. esp this phrase: i should be the one who is sorry. and another one: i want to be there nad fight for the best compared to others. and one more phrase: remember what my mum says.

i know all these are in the context of work, but then when you read it, it makes u feel happy, sweet and have the feeling of being loved. of course, i am gg to gather up all the courage to tell it to him one day, be it even through writing it out on a card or paper to tell it to him.

ultimately, just summarize in 3 words: i like him.